2 Sweet Letters 12-8-15

Original AirDate: December 8, 2015
Copyright Date: November 2, 2013
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Letter 1: I have just carefully and thoughtfully reading reading your email attachment of October 28, and I too would like to have some definitive closure of this protracted conflict. I do believe, though, that because of our radically different views of events, our concepts of resolution will also be contradictory.

All that we humans experience in life, our successes and failures, our relationship and accomplishments, are not facts that exists in a vacuum. Our life histories are seen and interpreted through the lenses of our culture, our past experiences, and our expectations. Because these lenses are different and unique for everyone, we see and feel the story of our life in a wholly individual way. Tow individuals can be standing side-by-side and go through the same event, and yet have radically different accounts of the experience. Is one account true and the other false, or vice versa? Both of the contrasting views of the event are true, within the context of that person’s filter of life, it is their story and has no more or less validity than the other individual’s rendition of the event. The effort to make one story conform to the other, to prove one is right and the other wrong, or create a single account that commingles the two is often futile and probably unnecessary. All relationships experience these disconnects from time to time, and often it is most wise to agree to disagree and take separate paths, as in the parable of Abram and Lot.

It is clear, from your words, that you have felt dissatisfaction and distress during your time at ( ) It was never my desire nor intention to cause or contribute to this, and I do not think that it was your motive to disrupt my experience either. We have had years of shared encounters that we obviously interpret in radically different ways, and it is very unlikely that our divergent stories of who did what, will ever be resolved.

I do not desire or intend to detail my view of this whole experience, or debate the merits of our varying viewpoints, because I do not believe that this will lead to any consensus or resolution. I will make no attempt to justify my behavior or criticize yours. I will try to charitably give everyone involved credit for doing their best, and then recommend that we go our separate ways. I intend to continue doing my job to the best of my ability, and to fulfill my duties as articulated by my employer. My personal feelings and private life are my own, including my view of this difficult impasse wherein we find ourselves.

I am sorry that you have struggled with aspects of your experience at ( ) I hope that you will find a way to move on, find peace in your life, and satisfaction in your artistic expression.

Letter 2:

Dear Beloved: Do you really want me to leave? Do you truly know the story of Abram and Lot?

It’s a beautiful telling of Gods’ and Abram’s love for Lot and his family. This is not a tragedy for the righteous. There is restoration and rebuilding; not a of a land but perhaps in the heart. Abram and Abarham is the same person. When God made a covenant (meaning promise) with Abrah, God “Changed” Abram’s name to Abraham.

In a sense, God breathed new life into Abram and gave him a new name as a symbol and sign of this covenant. Go dmade Abram the father of many nations and in the Hebrew language the “h” is very breathy when pronounced; just an interesting insight is all. Sarai also received a new name: Sarah. When God changes things, He makes

all things new from inside to outside. Here are some interesting things about what you mentioned that you may not be aware of:

1. Abram and Lot didn’t separate due to ill will, disagreement, fighting, disconnect or conflict. The land couldn’t support their vast herds and wealth. It was their herdsmen that were quarreling.

2. Abrahaman had rescued Lot from Kings. That’s not a disconnect, that’s connection–that’s love. They were still tethered together for there are some things that even distance can never separate.

3. Abraham interceded on Lot’s behalf to save his life before Sodom and Gomorrah were destroyed.

4. Abraham asked The Lord to spare Sodom & Gomorrah if there were at least 10 righteous.

5. The Lord God couldn’t find at least 10 (our of tens of thousands) righteous people in the city.

6. Angels were sent to warn Lot and Lot got out of the city with his family.

7. The cities were destroyed due to the un-Godliness = sin and darkness of the people.

8. God used Abraham to save Lot’s life. Abraham loved Lot. God loved Lot.

9. If Abraham didn’t intercede on Lot’s behalf–Lot would’ve perished in the destruction of the cities. And you want me, the one who’s been interceding on your behalf, to go? Do you know what you’re saying?

10. If Abraham chose another filter; one of selfishness and not love; Lot would’ve perished. Abraham chose a better filter, a better way to do things. A filter that preserved life.

11. It’s analogous to what Jesus did on the cross for us with His nail pierced hands. He interceded to save US.

12. Outcomes form our filters do matter. If one continuously chooses filters that cause destruction, pain, suffering, harm, etc, then we’re not using the correct filters. We need to identify it and make changes.

13. Parables were used by Jesus to tell analogous stories so that those who were spiritually inclined to hear would hear and those that were spiritually inclined to “see” would “see”. If Jesus straight up told the people, “I am the Messiah.” They would’ve crucified Him too soon before He could get His message out with the parables.

However, Lot and Abraham isn’t a parable, this is factual history.

Agreed, two people having the same experience can view things differently; each with their own filters that can vary their interpretation of it and ultimately shape choices and outcomes. Alas, that’s why there’s chaos in the world” people choose the wrong filters in which to view things. If you wear dark tinted glasses, the world looks dark. There is right and wrong; truth and deception; whether you believe it or not. Gravity: we can’t see it but it exists. It is a fact and can’t be interpreted differently because it’s factual truth which is different from personal truth and this is where filters shape our personal truth.

It’s our choice which set of filters to choose. It will change our path and view radically. Filters can cause misinterpretation as well. Filters also chose and define the company we keep (within and without). That company also influences our filters and choices. Certainly there are many filters and combinations of them, but it’s not wise to choose one leading to destruction. One set of filter embraces the truth (HOPE, love, life, peace, joy, light, patience, accountability, selflessness, long suffering meaning persistence, forgiveness, harmony). It’s a strong standard of arbitration which has unshakable foundations. One set of filters allows deception (darkness, destruction, legalism, rigidity, confusion, anger, blame, self-hatred, self-protection, mask wearing, confusion). It’s a weak wall to hide behind until it crumbles and then it’s too late.

If you want me to leave, tell me these words looking into my eyes and perhaps you’ll “see” for the first time.

Happy Valentine’s Day

For the hearing impaired. We have included a transcript

Noelle Notes 2-14-16
4:36
Transcribed by Jay K.

Hey beautiful. I hope everyone is doing very well today. And I’m still sick. Nothing to
be worried about though. I know a couple of you got worried “You’re sick again, Noelle,
what’s wrong did you go to the hospital?” It’s not that kind of sick, it’s just a stupid
cold thing. I’m working on building up my immune system, so until I get it down it’s gonna
be bumpy. So, this was just a bump and yeah I don’t feel too good but nothing like last
time. This is pretty minor in comparison. I just need to get over it. It’s just a head
sinus thing, well you know how you feel when you get sick, kinda icky, but this too shall
pass. It’s not holding me back from dancing, teaching and whatever I have to do.

I do have to go to sleep pretty early but, it’s all ok. Let’s see, well Happy Valentines
Day, that is tomorrow, although by the time this video goes up it may actually be 1 in the
morning so if it is Happy Valentines Day to you. And go squeeze your beloved, and you know
what, if you don’t have the special partner in your life that’s ok, cause you know I’m sure
you have siblings, parents, somebody you love. Valentines Day doesn’t always have to be for
lovers. It can be for just people who love each other. Friends. You know. It’s just fun.

We have a special lover’s surprise for you guys. My husband and I did a beautiful photoshoot
today. And I promised I would share some really interesting little cheats that you can do
for gifts and it doesn’t cost anything really. If you have a camera and you have somebody
who’s half way decent at photography you can do an incredible photoshoot. If you know
anything about lighting you really can do a lot of graet and creative things. So, we went
at it today and we gave each other some really special Valentines Day gifts by doing that.
And when times are tough that’s what you do, right. You make a moment. Happy Valentines Day.
Please do know that everything and anything that you may see us do, we don’t spend a fortune on
anything.

I don’t want to give you guys the wrong idea, not that we’re cheap, but we do have to be
very, very frugal with our income. So we do our best to find ways like for Valentines Day,
we did something that cost us nothing at all, but we were able to produce really beautiful
photos and I can’t wait to show them, share them to you all. I think you’ll like them a lot.
So why not take this opportunity to get with your friends or your loved ones, or your lover or
whoever it is and celebrate Valentines Day in a special way. Make somebody a special video,
take pictures, make a day of it. A beautiful photoshoot right?

So thank you all very much for your support and your love. I hope I give an ounce of that back to you.
THis is one of our props. Amazing. I love fabric, right? You know that by now. This is one of the
things I utilized in our photoshoot. I think you’ll like how we used it. So many blessings to
you, stay safe, keep spreading the love. Happy Valentines Day. Sending my love to you.

Freedom!

Freedom 12-6-15
6:41

On this cold night and I can't sleep I decided to watch Les Miserables. It's a very
intense times Ive seen it about 6 times, actually make that 7. I forgot I watched
it on the way home two years ago when I toured with my company back east in NY. Everyone
in the plane around me was checking me out, I could not stop crying to save my life.
It's one of those heart wrenching stories it is so beautiful. Redemption, forgienes,
justice, mercy, kindness, love. It's really a great film, watch it, or read it.
Isn't it Victor Hugo who wrote that? I could be wrong. Read it.

And a lot of people really don't understand what this film is about. It is about
God moving through us to show love and mercy and there are many other themes but
that is one of the biggest ones. It's about an uprising and a revolution, common
folk became warriors to fight for what they love. They didn't want to be controlled
any more. When watching this film, I'm realizing something, our heart beat strong and
loud, our hearts desire to know truth we really do. I just want to reach out to you
and encourage you.

God can use many things to open doors to open our hearts. He can use films, songs,
dances, other people, a kind heart, a smile. Be wise. Be like Jean Val Jean and
don't push away that person. Because I don't know if you know the gravity of all this.
You know where I'm coming from . The thing is, we could be the ones tying a noose
around our necks and not even realize it. I almost did it, I almost pushed away my
husband. But I didn't. On February 10 quite a few years ago, I found my true love.
I found it in my husband, I found it in my Lord and Savior. He was there for me
every step of the way. Every February 10 is more than just an anniversary for my
wedding day. It is truly when I became the bride for the Lord. And I gave my heart
to and I surrundered my callousness, my bitterness, my hate, my envy, my jealousy,
my pain, my fears, my insecurities, I laid it all at the foot of the cross. And
before I said I do to Kristopher I said I do to the Lord. And it's such a sweet soft
knocking on my heart. Just like a soft knock on the door and I said hi.

It's really kinda dopey sounding. I didn't have a very climactic transformation at all.
Leading up to it was anothe story, car accident that almost killed my mom. It was
pretty traumatic all the events leading up to it. But my salvation day was so beautiful,
and soft and gentle. Just beauty and peace. So I had two fathers who led me down the
aisle. Ive had many dads. The two that were there: One was my biological father. THe other
one was my step dad. He was a Jewish man, he was something else. ANd they both led me
down the ailse and they both held my hands. And then they gave my hands to the preacher.
And then they gave my hands to my husband. But more importantly, my husband gave my
hand and he said, "You have my hand, take my hand, now take the Lord's." And I took the
Lord's hand. It was a beautiful day. I want you to know it takes a lot of courage to
take that step. That step into freedom, but once you do, you will breathe like you have
never breathed before. All that crustiness around your heart will fall away.

Oh sure you'll remember the things of old. It just won't hurt as much. And sure you'll still
have those scars, but you know what you can be healed, you can be whole. YOu can then show
off your scars. Take those skeletons out of your closet and make them dance, that's what
I do. YOu'll no longer feel shame, you'll no longer feel the need to impose that upon
other people. You can be friends with God and reconsiled. So I encourage you, go ahead
watch or read Les Miserables. And just open your heart.

"And to love another person is to see the face of God." Quoted from the film: Les Miserables.

Quake Vision

Original AirDate: 11-18-15

   7:52

In my vison, when I first saw this I thought it was ood because we saw who did it and 

ok fine somebody hit the pole then I'm thinking ok this is gonna fall. But what struck

me oddest right then and there I was triggered with a vison. Because after the big quake

this is how everything looked and it's like all of this is flattened. That pole every time we walk

here reminds that its an inevitability. 

I'Ve been warning a lot of people. And I guess that anybody would know that we are gonna 

have major quake in this area it's just the way it is. No one needs to be clairvoyant or

psychic Imnot any of those things but I just don't think the severity of what ive seen in 

my visions in penetrating in anybody's heads because we did get through the Northridge quake.

I wasn't here I was in Vegas with my family. But just because one was lived through and

survived thankfully and gratefully, we can't let that build up a haughtiness or

pridefullness in our spirit you have to be prepared.

I just have this feeling because of what Ive seen in my vision that this is just not going

to be a severe quake, I keep seeing...  I hear people saying, "It wasn't supposed to be like

this." and I think it was over a 7.3 magnitude but it's the way it was shaking too and how

close to the surface it is going to be. There's just a lot of factors innvolved. Watch out for

the firehydrant. So that's what concerns me: Is that just because one quake was survived

...but remember all the damage. Again I wasn't here but we felt it in Vegas. It was pretty

severe there even, the damage that was done. I just want everyone to be safe. I don't want

anyone to get hurt and I wanna make sure that people know.

I hope that post serves as a reminder. That wasn't created by a quake someone ran into that

thing which is scary enough. You can see how out of place it is. If you turn the lense that

way I mean look at that it's really creepy looking to have something that you  normally see 

standing almost perfectly errect--not. It's very disconcerting. But everything was like that.

Everything was gone, reduced to rubble. And I'm on my knees. This is why I keep saying it

alarms me to know where I am in my vision after it happens and I'm on my knees and I'm saying,

"They didn't listen I tried to warn them and no one listened to me." 

I don't know why I have these visions. I hate them. THere's some things I'd rather not see.

And really the strange...I don't know if it's irony or not, I'm losing my vision yet I can 

see this stuff clearly. What is that. It's like my life and the journeys I've been on would

make one hell of a film. I don't know what this means, I just want people to be safe and

careful. But yeah it's a very strange, surreal thing.

Be safe everybody, please. Be thoughtful. Think about your surroundings, know where the

exits are. My dad ingrained that in my head. Have a plan. Be wise. Be prepared. I think

most catastrophies that do happen not that they could be avoided but I think they could

be less severe if people were prepared.

I want to be 100% wrong with this vision I don't want to be on my knees in the rubble

practically screaming, "They wouldn't listen." Even my worst enemies I wouldn't want to

have this happen to them. I mean my heart hurts any time anyone is hurt in any way. It

just puts everything into perspective. I'm told by so many of my mentors, they say, "You have

gifts that you should be grateful for you should be thankful for." I always tell them the

same thing: If you saw them the way I did I don't think you would be grateful for them I think

you would run for the hills and beg whoever: God - demons, I don't know you'd beg whoever to take 

them away from you. I appreciate the heads up but they're just so dramatic and graphic and I cant

escape them because they're right there right in front of me.

It's not like I'm thinking them up I'll just be walking like when I saw that lamp post bent

like that. I was just walking and I saw the whole thing - the earthquake. YOu know it just

hits me like that. I was thinking that much except trying to see where I'm walking. Anyhow take

everything for what you will. But if I'm even slightly right guys please be prepared. Know this comes

from a place of love and not condemnation in any way shape or form. I don't know how anyone

could read condemnation in that. Im just trying to give you a heads up.

All right that's all-love you!

Autumn Joy

Do you feel the briskness in the air? Isn't it beautiful? Oh my gosh this is like...

look at how magnificent that is. I don't know if the video can pick it up. Can you see

that? It's so glorious. This reminds when I was back east with my mom and she would take

us to the pumpkin farm. It was in the Catskills upstate New York and it'd be cold like it

is today. This is crazy this is California, Los Angeles, winter type day. 

Let's go over here. I want to find more leaves let's go back over here. This makes me feel

like I did when I was a little girl. She'd sayd, "Noelle slow down." I would run, I just loved to run.

I didn't know where I was going I just wanted to feel like I was free like I was flying.

These have just fallen from the tree you can tell by their color, they're pretty damp. They

haven't been given enough time to fall from the tree. They should be this beautiful red,

burgundy color. I think it's getting too cold too quickly the weather keeps bouncing back and

forward and it's confusing the trees. Oh here's one. This is pretty close. This is beautiful.

And it feels so good. 

What I find amazing is that we're seeing the signs of a life cycle. This is the autumn of the

life cycle. It gives back to the earth so then it can nurture it and prepare the soil so then

when spring comes it keeps the ground warm, and it keeps the seeds warm so that when spring 

comes the fruit from the seeds will grow.

One of my favorite times of the year is autumn because this is when we can harvest the fruits

of our labor.